As I’m writing this I sit on a bench near the river, admiring the last bit of yellow reddish sunlight coming over the horizon. I wonder how many people admired it today. It was the sunset that pulled me out of my appartment into the warmth outside. The beautiful spectacle of nature I rarely enjoy as much as tonight.
Walking to the river, I doubted that many people chose to watch the sunset over television or their mobile device. Especially after day with the outside temperature kissing 40 degrees.
But ending the day on a mobile device or television is something I find myself distancing from again. Because I feel that more can be learned and earned outside of this space. Sure, I watch animation and films. But I choose with deliberate intend. Looking to characters, structure and execution of a story. Goal driven entertainment, if you will.
My personal theme this year is Future Fit. I intend to create a situation that allows me to create stories full-time. Hence that I’m writing again for my website, about 141 days after my last update. I deliberately mention the number of days because my focus has not on writing. It was on making the event that I’m volunteering a succes. But it required me to be active and responsive to the situation, which left me tuned out to writing and my development in this field.
I realised after(wards) how detrimental it was to the focus I had towards writing and creating. Only now, 3 weeks after, I feel that this step backwards has allowed me to take two steps forward. Retaking focus (in a brutal way) and making steps towards defining my Ikigai.
I had to fill in the last blanks in my Ikigai overview, but I believe I’ve made progress. The question is how I will use it in my next step. Because in all stories there are 3 common things: There is the thing a character wants – which for me is creating stories; there is the thing the character needs – I believe for me this is focus and balance.
But there is also the thing the character will get through the course of the story. And since this current chapter of my life isn’t over yet, I cannot answer this yet, The only thing that I know for sure is what my mind does when I quiet everything else around me. It makes stories to fill me up. It uses me as a perspective to venture to fantastical places; futuristic and fantasy alike. That is my anchor for this chapter in life.
You will probably read it in the future on this website when I feel a new chapter begins. Untill then, I try to update while writing my book. Second part of the 2019 is going to be interesting. I’m quite positive.